Wake me when Christmas is Over

Does anyone else feel this way? Having not much of a functional family, no family of my own that I have created, and my spouse's family that sets off the anxiety bells, I am glad when Christmas is over. The loneliness ovetakes me, the days wind down to Christmas Eve when I am supposed to feel something, feel the connection to family and something greater. The only thought that ovetakes me is getting past January 1st and being in a normal routine again. No more family members that could not care less when I call, write or walk in a room. I look forward to getting back to my friends, my dog clients and exercising. Feeling like an outcast on this supposed special day is enough for me to mark it off the calendar for next year. I try to help others around this time of year to allay the feelings of loneliness but, it only goes so far. No family members gathered around the warm fire for me. Give me acold day spent outside with my dog and I am much happier. Did I mention I had to board my dog Axel for the holidays?